instant heroin addict

just add 12 hours at work, four hours sleep, and repeat.
a vague early morning parade to the station, loud music piped into the brain.
an argument with the railway staff, it is not service they offer.
smile on the platform, gaze into middle distance -
drinking the tea you brought from your bedside.
instant brown, instant karma.
no wonder they stare as I crumble away from the day.

show me your friendship - i'll show you your weakness

family you can't choose. friends you can.
choose to get rid of that is.
company exists ahead of frienship, it has the common ground, the shared experience but without the emotional attachment - that opens up each soul to sadness.
firends will let you down, just the same as family, lovers or enemies.
They shouldn't but they will. If you can make do without too many close friends, you'll get by on an even keel, perhaps you'll miss some highs but you will forego the suffering of betrayal.
Aquaintences not friends. There is not as much to lose.